Friends, you are getting a VERY behind the scenes look into my own journal today!
I have been going on and on about the importance of journaling lately and I mean it!
Getting your thoughts, feelings, emotions, beliefs, and body sensations out of your head and onto paper has immense benefits! The main positive experience is that once they are on paper they are actually out of your head!
This creates so much head AND heart space for newness to show up! A new sense of ease, relief, clarity and flow.
Writing is one of the most powerful tools I use in my own well-being practice and I encourage you to start letter writing today!
This specific #15MinFillUp was vulnerable to read, publish, and share! However, I am all for teaching and leading by example. Of all the guidance I provide you, I am doing my own inner work constantly to lead from the front.
You and you alone are the leader of your life. It's time you step into the role.
Dear Mr. Gazda,
Yes, Mr. Gazda. First off, don’t doubt that I have considered all of the feedback I imagine this title will create but to be fair, I don’t know your real last name. To be straight, at this point in life (and the world), who’s to say that you wouldn’t take my last name? It IS a bomb ass name. I am a bomb ass woman and I am creating a bomb ass brand with my amazing name plastered all over it.
Aaaaaanywho, Mr. Gazda, I am writing you to let you know how ready I am to meet you. I have gone through quite the journey to find you and I can feel our paths getting closer. I can sense your approach. I can feel your power from light years away but I know you are in the vicinity.
A little over a year ago, I received one of the greatest compliments of my love life from a family member that dialed me in on who and how you are.
I was busy crying over another break up or some fling when my family member lovingly said, “Abigail, you will have no doubt that you have met the man you will be with because he will be remarkably extraordinary.”
Her words hit my core. “There is no way an average man can handle your power, dreams, passion, vision, and heart and you are going to have to be okay waiting for him because he is busy building his empire too.”
Her message sunk so deep into my heart. I knew she was right. I knew it and yet, I felt more sadness at the time.
“Great,” I thought knowing this would be more of a waiting game than anything.
“Where and how on Earth will I go about finding or attracting him?!?”
Accepting how extraordinary I know you to be, I did not feel like I was dwelling in social circles that were going to lead me to you. I felt then, and still do not, feel like I am in ‘my lane’ that will lead me to you. To find you at the level upon which I believe I would find you, I got nervous and intimated about who I was going to have to become in the meantime.
I began exploring who I would have to be to attract you. Most of my life, I made myself wrong for how much gumption I can muster up for a goal. I often tell myself,
“Abigail, you are too Alpha. You are too much. You are too powerful. Tone it down if you ever expect a man to take care of you the way you want to be taken care of.”
I still catch my inner critic convincing me that no man would be attracted to my fully unleashed, fully authentic self.
Sure, damsels get the knights but what do warrior women get? I criticized myself for my freakish ability to achieve, perform, succeed, teach, guide, create, and more. I struggled with my level of masculinity so I began exploring my femininity as to soften my edges. I have been doing this with therapists, coaches, healers, friends, family, strangers at Starbucks, you name it. Babe, I have been workin’ myself ooout to meet you!
For the time being, I am watching other couples longingly as they grow together. I watch them climb mountains together. I am watching them come up together and want that for us. Sure, building an empire is fun, don’t get me wrong. I have a clear Hearts Unleashed message and mission that I am on. In my mind, sharing it with you and our future children will be even. more. fun. Doing it all together seems thrilling. Watching you build you and supporting your process as well lights me up!
I am tellin’ yah hun, whatever is keeping us apart has got my trippin’ because I feel so ready to meet you. Anyways, what my family member said was so obvious to me after she said it. Deep down, I did believe her when she told me that you are so extraordinary.
My vision and drive often intimidates men. I have dated, and even married, men who didn’t share my huge goals. I have tried to align with men who don’t fully appreciate or cherish the fullest version of me. This has gotten so discouraging at times. I convinced myself that all the romance I thought I believed in is ‘just in the movies.’ And no, I am not being dramatic, boo. Until last year, I stopped believing that men still open doors or buy flowers.
I have manipulated my own judgement hoping that the men I have been with would evolve into you to no avail. I began to convince myself that you do not exist or I would never even know that you were standing an inch from me because I felt like my judgement of character is so out of whack.
Babe, this has caused such an internal struggle. This dating journey has bent, shaped, and molded me into a woman I didn’t recognize. It has definitely defined and refined who I know myself to be. It has forced me to know me, my standards, my boundaries, my expectations, and conditions of satisfaction. It has granted me so much clarity even in the fog. So I became more focused on the vision.
I kept climbing my own personal mountains. I have kept building my business. I keep tending my own garden. I ended up on a full throttle mission to become something I am not to ‘be ready’ for you. I convinced myself that I had to be fully grown, established, debt-free, mature, womanly, well-dressed, and well-known to find you.
I kept telling myself that I won’t meet you until I am some fully developed version of myself but I have seen how it maintains the gap between us, so I decided to write you this letter instead.
This journey has been exhausting, my love. I have no idea who or where I am going to be when I meet you and I think I am done trying to figure it all out. I have over intellectualized, over compensated, over prepared, and I am over it.
I love you already. I am proud of you. I just want to love you in person. My love language is quality time and every minute I have to wait is twice as long that I want to spend getting to know you and building our lives together. Of course, I’ll keep waiting buuuuuut like, can you hurry up? JK…but suriously babe. Lez go.
In this #15MinFillUp, I am exposing the underlying factor causing you to feel stuck!
I am also talking you through how to overcome this obstacle so that you can begin bulldozing the barriers between you and your fullest life!
I am sharing 5 quick tips on how to shift from dreaming to doing today.
This isn't an episode about what you're doing.
It's an episode about what you're not doing!
It is a chance to uncover the hidden reason you're feelin' so funky and get back in the swing of things.
Join us today to get unstuck NOW!
I am so excited to share the unleashed heart of Andrew Steel! He is Australian born and a newly American feature film leading man!
Andrew stars in the recently released Wish Man movie portraying the founder of the Make A Wish Foundation, Frank Shankwitz!
Andrew is a conscious entrepreneur making a huge impact in the world with his Flicks4Change Film Festival which he shares in today's episode and invites you the opportunity to participate!
In this #FridayFillUp episode, he tells us how he landed his lead role and his leading lady, Kym Jackson.
We also talk about how he has persisted in his career as an actor to now be starring in major feature films!
Andrew a kind, hilarious, has a powerful presence and keeps us laughing this whole episode!
Come find out how Andrew Steel is leading by example.
Join us today for tips on how to land the lead role in your own life!
Episode 082: How To Get AND STAY Productive
This #15MinFillUp episode is for the Dreamer ready to be a Doer!
It's for those of you who have a vision and just stay in the state of visualization as you stay crippled by fear, anxiety, and self doubt.
If you are always downloading the newest *FREE* thing to *FINALLY FIX* what you think is wrong, this is a great episode for you.
I've subscribed to every other coach and guru's guides to get what you want to no avail.
I have worked out for myself what works for me and my clients.
No, I'm not gonna give you some strategy about to-do lists or 3 hour work days.
I am going to talk you through your own mind.
This an opportunity to take a look for yourself at what you care about, what actually works for you, and what you are creating in the world!
Holding your fully realized self in your mind's eye is where productivity comes from!
I am sharing how to get into aligned and inspired action so that you can turn your thoughts into things!
In 15 minutes, you will have a tool that you can use for the rest of your life!
Tune in on iTunes, Spotify, and heartsunleashed.com
This #FridayFillUp nterview with inspirational speaker Joe McVeen is one that my transplanted mid-westerners are going to love! Joe and I discuss the pyramid of transcendence as he shares his story of leaving Corporate America.
We dive in deep into human patterning to explore the real meaning of purpose and letting yours go viral! Joe the creator of the Viral Purpose Academy helps leaders identify,edify, and solidify their purpose and turn it into their profession!
Sitting together in Joe's bungalow discussing the necessary internal shift that will empower you to go from dreaming to doing was blissful! Having these powerful conversations are what are going to birth the new realms of evolution for the masses!
This is an episode that will awaken the sleeping giant within you. It will unleash hearts in a way that will create leaders!
So if you are ready to become a conscious leader of love, discover your purpose, and let it go viral, this is the episode for you!
Notice when you are spiraling and shift your perspective with this 4 step tool! It is my most often taught tool and will transform your life moment by moment!
What a free flowing episode you are about to embark on! Take a journey with Cordelia Rose and I as we gently walk through and dance in today's conversation!
Cordelia gives us our June tarot card reading that is definitely spot on for me and I'm going to guess there's a message in it for you as well! She pulls 3 cards to reveal your messages about the past, present, and future of June 2019!
We also discussed the rising in the consciousness of humanity, the divine feminine and masculine, and our duty as spiritual beings evolving in this human experience! This is one of the grooviest conversations I've had on the Hearts Unleashed Podcast and it is a total jam sesh!
Slow down, sit down, and cozy up for this #FridayFillUp.
Grab your note book and some hot tea!
This episode well fill that cup of yours as you rest from chasing your dreams with us.
Alight you guys! Have you noticed the wave of popularity in journaling (and even meditation?)
Well in today's #15minfillup, I am going to share 4 major benefits and 5 tips to get you started on your journaling journey!
First off, notice that the title of this episode say EFFECTIVE journaling!
That is because when people first start a journaling or meditation practice, they normally have NO IDEA what they are doing or trying to produce!
This causes frustration, inconsistency, lack of results, and eventual quitting. No beuno.
Especially if you are seriously interested and do not know where or how to get started.
Today's episode will help with anyone wanting to get started or shift into a more meaningful experience doing introspective work, which is absolutely essential to transformation. Start here and start journaling effectively today!
and if you are just getting into meditation as well, feel free to download this PDF to get started today!
We are stripping any inauthenticities in this #FridayFillUp interview with Arthur Sebben.
Fitting for his interests, he is a Pipeline Controller by day and a Nudist anytime else.
Well because welding in the buck is dangerous, yo.
This conversation is like none other on the Hearts Unleashed Podcast! Art shares his life long journey of 'coming out' about his desire to be nakey! He openly talks about his trials, tribulations, and triumphs of the process.
He even offers a new term to consider for a Nudist.
He shares many life lessons that he garnered in his growth and what he has given up (hint: not his clothes).
This episode is perfect for anybody interested in discovering what's available in exploring the unknown.
Drop your doubts so the breeze of self acceptance can graze your heart.
This is honestly one of the most powerful 15 minute fill ups that I've ever recorded!
It is one you can listen to again and again as you practice forgiveness in every area of your life! In this episode, I walk you through an exercise in forgiveness that will grant you your freedom!
If you are ready to cut the chains of your past and release your grudges, tune into this episode right now!
No need to be read further or be more convinced.
If you want your emotional freedom, you're going to want to learn these 2 Factors to Forgiveness that will grant you access to your freedom!
Written by Abigail Gazda
Liver of life and lover of love, Abigail has transformed her passion for education into a full-time career as a life coach and public speaker. Author of Giving Up Giving Up: The Memoir of a Quitter, the transformative work she does invites people to live with intentionality and power.